so its been two months already since you past..
we miss you alonzo. hope you're watching over us.
i still cant believe that you're gone.. i miss youu like crazy jo.

rest in peace "pretty boi"
O92O9O - O126O8

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we love you.

so yeh.. happy new year i guess since this is my first time writing in here since 2007. well 2008 started off really bad and it still kinda is. and a month ago alonzo past away. i still cant believe that hes gone. to me i feel like hes jus sleeping or hes in mexico for a long time and that he'll come back to see all of us again. but then everyday i get reminded that hes gone by dumbasses that are racist and talk shit. the only thing that pisses me off the most is that in our school when someone dies, especially if they're white, they get all the attention and whatnot in school and everything is about them. but if the student is a hispanic, hardly anyone at school cares or lets the school be a part of it. it annoys me that the school did so many things for this one kid that past away last year and they wont let us do that much stuff for alonzo. dont get me wrong or anything, but i think its jus messed up how one kid can get soo much attention when they die and the others dont. i mean, they should give them the equal amount of things put together. but yeh. idk everythings been really messed up so far. ugh i think i have a denial problem. i cant accept the fact that hes gone. =/

to alonzo [i know you're reading this];;
hey boo. we all miss you like crazy and its already been a month without you here. thank you for giving all of us the strength to move on. i still cant believe taht youre gone. i still remember the first time i met you. it was in the 7th grade and you were all like "oo we got a new asian kid!." and then we started talking. hahah and you seemed so excited to talk to me that day too =P but then in 8th grade and so on it seemed as if we were drifting away from each other and we kinda did. but we still managed to chill with each other on weekends =] but then came high school when all of us were being separated to either go to north or central. ever since high school started we havent seen eachother in forever. i think the last time i saw you was at the mall and i was mad at you or something like that. i really regret doing that cuz now look. my last memory of you was when i was mad at you. im soo sorry. the only thing that was making me a lil more happier was that one day i heard vero and aris talking and one of them said something about another day is another day closer to to see you again. or something like that. the day of your wake when i saw you laying there in your casket, all peaceful and calm, i really wanted you to wake up. i busted out crying like crazy with no one next to me saying that it was okay and that i'll be seeing you again someday. and i know that if you were still here you'd be able to put a smile on my face. not just me but to everyone else that was there for you. you dont understand how much we miss you. i remember one time you were talking about how much you wanted to become famous or known. well earlier like last week i googled up your name and you had like 3 pages on you. and i was like haha you made google =P but yeh back to the wake when i saw you. well at first when i was there i was in denial and i thought that it was only a doll laying there. i really hate myself for being mad at you that one day. if i had one day to re-live, i'd relive the day that you got hit. after school i woulda called you and be all like "yo! we havent chilled in a long ass time" and then you'd come over and we'd play rockband =] hahah see. it woulda all worked out and you coulda still been here. but that lady that hit you is crazy and i dont like her. so yeh on sunday there was a protest thingy for you too. well idk what it was. i was gonna go with vero but i couldnt go =/ hm if i was able to call you from up in heaven i would call you like every freakin hour jus to see what you're doing =P hahah i bet that youre partying it out hard up there =P lmao jk but still if there was such thing i would call you like no other. but when i get up there we're mos def partying it hardcore up there xD lol. we miss you baby boy. its uber sad to know that you're gone now. oo oh yeah two days after you past away, a buncha us went to sergio's house to meet up and go to your house and check out how you left your room. lol it was messy as heck in there =P hah and me and isabel saw your lil clear box that said "cunt" on it then when we opened it we saw a buncha condoms in it xD hahah well at least we know that you played it safe. then we were seeing pictures of you and everything. sigh well idk this is super long now. i'll prolly jus write to you later so you can read it again too =] i miss you pretty boi<3 you'll always be our #1 angel up in heaven<33 i lovee youu. i know i'll be seeing you someday soon =] take care.

1) isabel told me that this was your last picture taken with one or your puppies before you past away.
2) you looking cute as haleee at homecoming as prince.

3) you at arisbel's quince.
4) you again at homecoming.

5) you and your dopeass mohawk with stars =] yano i liked them starsss<3
6) the thing that marcus made for you.

-Rest In Peace-
Alonzo De La Torre
O92O9O - O126O8
you will always be our prince<3

iloveyou alonzo<3
when we see each other again i'll give you the biggest, bestest hug ever!(:
i promise.

p.s. - im gonna try to stop by and see you at the cemetary and say hi to you =]
p.p.s. - happy birthday to jamie and isis.

hm. havent been on this for more than a month already. so im juss gonna say whats on my mind right now. [this is soo gonna random] so yeah school started on the 15th [which is soo early] and i guess its okay. i was suppose to do this CNA stuff but i wasnt a senior so they moved me down to medical assisting. its alright i guess. but eh. whatever. summer was okay not as great as the other ones but it was alright. im gonna miss ateh shaula though. shes leaving here to go back to the PI on septemeber 5th =[

UPCOMiNG EVENTS [err birthdays]::
august30-- ateh gigi's birthday.
september1-- vero's birthday.
september2-- mika's birthday & auntie pri's baby shower.
september4-- chicago people start school =P
september24-- alyssa's birthday.
september26-- the madre's birthday.
september30-- kuya jin's birthday.

haha. so yeahh. i learned the dance to this song at the dells from adrian =P lmao it was funny as hell yo.

yupp. well lately i've been feeling weird.. i mean, its like im missing something and i dont know what. idk. nvm. i hate the feeling of being used too. i wont say any names but damn.. it bogus of what you're doing yo. soo many people lost respect towards you too.. wow theres soo much going on right now. but i learned to drop things that are stupid and pointless from mahal ingkong. ohyeahh and the retreat was amazing.i met soo many wonderful people there. at first it was boring [nojoke] but once i think of it all together, it was fun. i mean, being locked up in a school with a buncha cool people, free food, and lots of praying? isnt that fun? =P lol. well i think i got closer to god aka mahal ingkong<3 he's like the bestest person ever! =P he'll never leave your side, he's always there to listen to you and guide youu through tough times. mann.. when i was there, that was like the most in my whole life that i've been religious. i mean, i dont go to church.. like, i want to but it doesnt happen. soo yeahh. im kindaa retarded. =P while i was over there, i prayed for so many people.. its crazy how he works things yo. but yeahh.. i loveee my sisters in christ! BNP CLASS #67! <3


sisters in christ<3

"i am your Sister in Christ, Anjelica Corpuz; very fortunate to have graduated the BNP Youth Ministry Panawagan Class #67;
held on July 20-22; in Chicago, IL; under the grace of God!"

hahaa. yupp. that's what you call to "jump". yeahh iono. hm.. oh and i juss got back from the dells. we stayed at the kalahari and it was okay. i mean i would've brought more people but i didnt know.. so yeahh. in my room there was me, jenna, adrian and bubba. it was soo funny cuz bubba and my ninong brought some bebe guns and the first night we stayed there we all thought about building a fort outta pillows and blankets. so we told adrian to call house keeping for 10 pillows and 4 blankets. and at first i guess he pressed the wrong button and called the restuarant downstairs =P but it took them awhile to find them i guess. uhhh.. oh yeah and i blast the A/C to the lowest setting which on 55 degrees and it was amazing x] it was soooo cold in the room. and in the other room it was sooo hot cuz i guess they had the fireplace going on. i got a whole bed to myself [so lonely] and jenna and adrian got the other and then bubba got the ground next the both of the beds so he can hide from ninong. the waterpark there was alright. i mean it kindaa got boring once you did everything there. well next time we're going to the wilderness around thanksgiving or christmas time =] and if its near christmas time, we're all planning on going snowboarding and whatnot =DD i cant wait. since i didnt bring enough people, imma bring more next time fasho ;]

hm. so far theres people that i look up to or made a difference to me or whatever. =P here they are..

+__ DUSTiN SALVADOR;;
so yeah.. about this kid. he's my kuya. i met him through gerald my freshman year. hes a cool kid. hes actually always there for me when i need him. we're like brother and sister basically. we tell eachother our problems and whatever we need help in. i mean, he can be the most annoy person ever like how he always sings that song to me and does his and dan's lil dance x] but hes the most nicest caring guy out there. you jus have to know him. and this one girl [not gonna say her name] seriously messed him up. this girl was the first girl he actually ever 'loved' yano? she broke his heart cuz she listened to what other people say to her about him. i mean if you really did like him back err loved him you wouldnt do that, right? and then about 3days later after the breakup her ateh starts shit with him. dustin didnt do shit to her. he treated her like a fucking princess but i guess she treated him like dirt =/ but anyways. im always gonna be here for you kuya. no matter what. thank you soo much for always being there when i needed you the most. i lovee youu.

+__ ATE SHAULA;;
hm. about this ateh of mine.. well i met her in the beginning of summer through nikki cuz thats her cousin =P and i always thought that ateh shaula was around my age. but nooo.. she's 21! O__O lol. i didnt know that till she told me. shes an amazing person. shes juss soo caring and wonderful. im REALLY gonna miss her when she leaves to go back home. =[ im soo gonna visit her over there too (: yupyup. the thing that reminds me the most of her is when me, ateh shaula, racheal, nikki and dan all chilled this one night ;] it was soo cool. well except the waking up with a H.O. eh it killed but i mean ateh shaula took care of us and cleaned up after us. sighh.. things will never be the same without her.. i mosdef wanna chill with her more until she leaves. like labor day weekend is coming up so we gots to have a MAD PARTY yo. jus to celebrate for something cuz its gonna be her last weekend here =/ eh. i really dont want her to go. cuz shes juss so fun. next summer she best be coming back or else =P well i juss

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+__ DAN DECENA;;
wow. when did i meet this kid.. well the first time i met him was when me and racheal went to woodfield to meet clarisse for the first time. first we went to woodfield then walked over to streets and stayed there till like 2 in the freakin morning cuz dan err i mean BUDDY was late. but its all good i guess. then when he picked up me, dustin and racheal we went to denny's cuz me and her and to pee and change cuz we were soaked cuz of the rain =P and then got some hot chocolate and then left to go home. he dropped of me and racheal at my crib at around 4am? it was a fun night. then the second time me and racheal saw him was when we called him so me, her, nikki, ateh shaula and him could all chill and yeahh. ;] that was a great night too. and then yeahh. the last time i saw was at the football game last friday with dustin and that new guy keith. yupyup. well i juss wanted to say thanks kuya for everything. like for the rides and stuff =P you're sucha gooood friend willing to pick up three kids at woodfield after work especially when youre closing too x] i loveee youu kuyaa. thankss again yo.

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+__ ERiC TRUONG;;
hah. wow whatta throwback picture yo. its from like whaa.. 2 years ago? =P well i like it for some reason. yupp well i met him through janice in like the end of '04 cuz i guess he knew my sisters, brittany and melissa. first it was AIM, then xanga, then myspace and facebook =P then we first met at the taste this summer. then juss chilled on random days. but now thats gone cuz we hardly talk anymore =/ i miss it when he use to give me advice on stuff and the long talks about things and all that other stuff. like the way he gives advice is nice and soothing and makes you understand life better. [psh that dont make sense] but hesa very cool guy. i look up to him. thanks for being there for me when my mom and dad got into that car accident and coming all the way up here just to see if i was okay =] i really appreciate it yo. i juss wish that you would let me into your life so i can help you better. and yeah i know that i suck at giving advice and stuff but like i really do care about you and i worry for you at times when youre 'emo' cuz you doubt yourself way too much and overthink things way too much. yup. but still youre a cool kid. dont forget that. and remember that i'll always be here no matter what. i'm still gonna be your friend even if you dont consider me as one =P i know you're still tryna get through some hard times and i wanna help. i really do. but i suck at things so ehh. we gotta chill again sometime soon yo =] love you and miss you homieee (:

ZaNsA PuNk (11:12:57 PM): forsureee

im glad to see that you're alright now :] welcome back homiee. and im liking the new haircut ;]

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+__ LUDWiG NGUYEN;;
ahaah. hm.. well at least i think thats his last name =P so anyways.. about this kid LOUiE =P hes new. he came from von steuben. i first 'spotted' him sitting by himself during lunch like a loser that he is. so me and krystine were like 'oh new asian kid. lehz go say hi.." =P and so we were pushing eachother to go say hi and introduce ourselves. so like usual i went first and started talking to him. i think he thought we were weird cuz we were superhyper that day. but yeahh. dooood louie.. you're suchadork. you ripped the K off the wall earliler today and almost got me, dustin and castro in trouble. =P you do the stupidest things ever. and psh you best be going to class from now on cuz now you're gonna end up being a supersenior yo. and you're gonna end up graduating with me. or get kicked out from all the stupid things that you do =P but yeahh. you're on here cuz your a cool guy, yano? you dont care what you do or what other people think of you. but you really need to stop doing that stupid shit. thats the thing thats messing you up like crazy. you got one more year.. dont screw it up. jus get it done and over with. you're a cool kid and you're baby nephews are cute =] lol. but yeah. take care louie. always be rawsome ;]

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+__ ATE JOSELLE;;
so about this amazing ateh of mine. shes also one of my sisters in christ. she was our rector person in the retreat. mann idk where to start.. shes a really cool, down to earth person. at the retreat she was sooo deep while sharing but still funny at the same time. i hardly know her but ever since the retreat it seems that all of us got closer to one another cuz of mahal ingkong. i really do thank him for giving me a chance to meet all these wonderful people. but yeahh. i dont really have that much to say.. i juss wanted to thank her for everything once again. i loveee youu ateh! you're amazing. and gooodluck on the wedding!<3

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<3 jellz`
i.w.i.h.a.s.a.c.b.r.n =/

so yeah. this is my first entry this year. and 2007 is pretty retarded. well when it started that is.
i had issues that needed to be fixed. but of course i did it the wrong way. now i seriouly regret ever
doing it and listening to him. sighh. well anywhos. now its summer and im tryna enjoy it? iono.
its okay. i dont gotta worry about homework not being done or papers that need to be written but
i know i still gotta do that reading thing x] gay.

hm well so far this summer nothing major really happened. except the NSX iS TOTALLED!!!  well
we're prolly gonna get it fixed cuz i guess its fixable? iono. but i was suppose to do this cotillion thing
but i guess not anymore. so thats off the summer to do list that the girls made =P well there was a buncha
stuff that still needs to be done..

1. slip n slide down a big hill.
2. camping/road trip with the cool kids =P
3. this one church retreat with racheal.
4. get some new piercings.
5. think about that one tattoo that i want? i still gotta think about it.
6. etc. theres wayyy more =P

sigh. well this entry is sooo random.
uhm. lehz see..

july1-- i dont think i did anything.
july2-- planning to go to the taste with janice and racheal the next day.
july3-- went to the taste with the adings.
july4-- party at my house. happy birthday andrew! i love you pinsan<3
july5-- went back to the taste with kuya dustin, elizabeth and mark.
july6-- happy birthday to michael habon! i love you lil bro<3
july7-- Rest In Peace- the nsx. [parents got into accident] chilled with eric the whole day. 
july8-- didnt feel well. my body was killing.
july9-- totally forgot what i did.
july10-- had this pimpass blackout. pretty spiffy, i'd say x]
july11-- happy birthday arisbel!! i love you chapina<3

uhh. things that i know that are coming up..

july14-- bubbas really late grad party.
july20-22-- retreat thingy with racheal.
july23-- happy birthday ming! your finally one year old. dumas x]
july23-24-- road trip to the dells with kuya dustin and some of his roselle friends.
july31-- happy birthday johnjohn! i love you cousin<3

and yeah. thats all i know sooo far. i cant wait till the retreat thing and the dells. its gon be pretty sweet =]

hm,, well lately i've been feeling out of it. like seriously. i think i juss need to get away. everything i
do ends up hurting people i love or even me. its really retarded. theres only one really major thing
that i really regret doing. some people know and some dont. but iono. me and gerald broke up after
his birthday cuz i guess we both realized that we needed space. all we did was fight and hurt eachother
and it was retarded. i still love him and all but iono. things happen for a reason i guess..

me and the friends; we're all doing goood except that we all hardly see eachother cuz some of us got
work, school, church. and yeah. its really hard for all of us to be together at one time. but we all love
eachother so its alll gooooood. (:

me and this one song; omg it wont get outta my head! ever since i heard it on making the band4, its
been stuck in my head! ahhh. well its called my cherie amore<3 its alright. but yano. im gettin annoyed
by it now. x]

yeahh. soo summers here. ha. yeahh heres a few pictures thats from this summer. well prolly most of you
guys already seen it on myspace or facebook. but whatver this is for the xanga people =P

yupyup. well thats pretty much it. i think. eh well i'll update this thing again later =]
peace out nigga ;]

<3 anjelica.

p.s-- i totally forgot how to use this

p.p.s-- i think i fell for him =X